11.18.2004 / 10:16 a.m.

Jaw: clenched. Eyes: tired. Awake: 5:45 a.m.

Mood: mixed.

Always wondering: what's next, what's next?

Instead of just being in the moment.

I need to be in the moment.

But I'm too fidgety, too restless.

Too, too...just too too.

then ... now